Wednesday, 23 November 2011


Last week when I was in the hospital, I met a lady whom I will call Mrs. Gage ( I don't recall her name). Mrs. Gage has a 3 yr. old son whose name is Sean. She told me that Sean had leukemia and that he had been diagnosed in the beginning of October. (Leukemia is a lot like lymphoma.) Just like I had to stay in the hospital at the beginning, Sean went in for his first week on October 16th and he hasn't left once. He has had infection after infection after infection. He even had to go back into OR because his port, which was on his right side, flipped over to his left side. Don't ask me how that happened but it did. They tried to get it back to the right side but it didn't work so they just left it alone. After he went into OR he got an infection in the incision on the right side, which spread to his left side.  I was listening to her tell me this and thinking to myself how blessed I am and how amazing God has been to me. He has protected me from so much stuff and has blessed me more than I can say. Everyday I am overwhelmed by everyone's kindness and encouraging words. 

You are a fighter,
a survivor,
a woman of faith and strength.

You are a tough opponent for any challenge.
Even the big "C" in no match for you, 
because you belong to an even bigger "C"-- Christ. 

Ps. 138:3 - On the day I called, you answered me; my strength of soul you increased. 

If you could please pray for Sean, that he would be healed from his infections and that he would be able to leave the hospital. Please pray for his Mom that she would find strength as she stays there also. I don't believe they are Christians. 

Thursday, 17 November 2011


I want to thank everyone for all the prayers this past week. Of the last three hospital admissions this one has been the best one of all. :) All week I was only a little bit nauseous, which was amazing. I was totally not expecting it to go so well. The amount of visitors that I had this week was incredible. Thank-you to all those who came and visited. When people visit me it breaks up the day and gives me a new face to look at. I hope that the next time I'm admitted, it will be just as good. :) 

It's a winter wonderland outside today. :) I'm not crazy about being in the snow but I love to look at it. 

:D :D A nurse told me that the Canucks usually come to the hospital during the last week of November or the first week of December. I will be in the hospital for the last week of November. I'm really hoping that they come and that I will get to see them. :D

I'm so excited that in thirteen days it will December!! It's crazy! Anyways, I'm really happy that this third phase is almost over and I praise God for His gentleness and kindness. 

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

I am halfway!! There are fifteen weeks left of intense cancer treatment. After that, I will have to take oral chemo for a year and a half, so I will be visiting Children's Hospital once a month. I am also halfway through my third phase. This will all be over, God willing, in the fall of 2013.

Last week was an extremely bad week. On Thursday, my stomach felt like it had been trampled on. I didn't eat anything till about 8 o'clock at night. On Friday I felt a teeny bit better, stomach wise, but I still felt disgusting, so I was given some synthetic marijuana. I felt very discombobulated afterwards. My head was spinning and all it did was make me feel worse. Maybe next time I'll try the real stuff. :) Saturday I was much better. Thankfully. I'm gaining my strength back every day. It is hard for me to wrap my head around the thought that next week will probably be even worse. :(

Word of the Week-   discombobulated-- disconcerted or confused.

I love this poem :)

The best poem ever.

One night I dreamed a dream
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets
of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord
about my dilemma.

“Lord, you told me when I decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during the most troublesome
times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why, when I needed You most,
You leave me.”

He whispered, “My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints
it was then that I carried you.”

~Margaret Fishback Powers

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

Happy November!

It's November!!

Having a normal life for a week is like heaven. It's just amazing. I always thought that my life was boring and I wanted something different to happen to me. Well, that happened and now all I want is for my life to be back to what it was....but since that isn't going to happen any time soon I'm going to stop talking about it.

It was Reformation Day/ Halloween yesterday and I spent it at the hospital. All the nurses and the doctors were dressed up in interesting looking costumes. My doctor was dressed up as Johnny Canuck. I almost didn't recognize him at first sight. I had to take a second look. Everything went well yesterday. I was able to start my chemo at 5:30 p.m. which means that it will stop dripping at 5:30 later on today. I was brought up to my room mid-afternoon right when the humongous trick-or-treat parade was happening. The lobby and the halls were filled with people in costumes. The big tv camera crews were there. All the kids were getting tons of candy. Unfortunately, I didn't participate in the parade because I had to go to my room. Mom went downstairs a few minutes later, but she said that the parade was pretty much over. A nurse popped her head into my room about 10 min. later and asked if I wanted some candy. I immediately said yes. She gave me a whole bag. :)

Last night I got woken up every 2 hours. It was pure torture. :( To make up for lack of sleep I slept for 3 1/2 hrs. today. I also listened to a book on cd. Jennifer is coming to stay with me tonight and she will stay till tomorrow night. Hopefully everything will work out and I will be able to come home Thursday night. 

"When the trees their summer splendor
Change to raiment red and gold,
When the summer moon turns mellow,
And the nights are getting cold;
When the squirrels hide their acorns,
And the woodchucks disappear;
Then we know that it is autumn,
Loveliest season of the year."
-   Carol L. Riser, Autumn