Monday, 25 May 2015

and I ramble once again

We'll never know why. We will never discover the purpose for our suffering. Suffering wouldn't be the same if we knew the reason for it. Romans 8 says, "For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience." The only thing we know is that we suffer so that our faith will grow stronger. And so we need to keep our eyes fixed on heaven. The final prize makes all the suffering worth it no matter how hard it is. No matter how hard life gets and how much it might suck, we need to keep turning back to Jesus and we must hang onto him. 

I've needed to remind myself of these things lately. Otherwise I get lost; lost in the "what-if's" and the "why's". I've also discovered lately that it is good to have a plan. Any sort of plan no matter how small it is. I lost sight of my plan for awhile and stopped thinking about getting better from this cancer. I didn't think about the future at all. But lately I've realized that that is not a good thing. And so I have my plan back again. It's not a big future plan. It's small. But I've got it back again. And I'm happier now. I'm not stuck in a rut of nothingness. My plan is to be healthy by August. It might not happen that way but at least I'm working towards something again.    

Cancer is terrible and it often feels like my body is turning against me but the cancer will be obliterated. It will not destroy me. I will conquer it. 

The Bible verse that is super inspiring to me right now: "I shall not die, but I shall live, and recount the deeds of the LORD." - Ps. 118:17


  1. Becca,
    Thank you for sharing. I much admire your courage and faith, as I know many do. May our Lord continue to give you strength, both physical and spiritual, than you may be victorious in Him. Keeping you in prayer.


  2. Wow Becca you are an amazing person. We pray for you everyday, but I'm super happy that you have a plan again :)

  3. We have been thinking of you and praying for you and your family Rebecca....Big HUGS! Love, Camille XO

  4. Hi Becca,
    You don't know me, but I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am praying for you right now. Jesus loves you, and He has given you a purpose. You have impacted my life. And, I just wanted to say thank you. Stay strong!

    your sister in Him,

  5. Just stopping in to let you know you are being prayed for....sending love and hugs to you! XOXO

  6. "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain; for the former things are passed away." Revelation 21:4

    We are praying for you all and here for you in any way that we can be. As Rebecca said in this post...keep your hearts and minds fixed on those eternal things. She is healed and free from suffering. But, letting her go for this time is so difficult. May you know the Lord's grace and comfort and peace in the midst of your sorrow. He will carry you when you cannot walk. Much Love, Camille and Family XO